usurpers | ic contact 💥 recollé (v2)

Not for this.

And holy shit
like Astray No-Name Blue Frame but with spider wings? You said you were up high too, tell me you were the pilot.

[ PLEASE TELL HIM YOU WERE IN A COCKPIT ]

I guess I don't have too much room to judge, here, haha

Yeah kinda like that. Also it had like one horn on the front of its head I think

As far as piloting: I definitely wasn't the pilot of the blue robot, but I was up high and there was some kind of control system I didn't understand so

Maybe? I honestly don't want to get my hopes up too high

How are those hopes when you just remembered piloting a giant mecha, seeing another giant mecha??
Because that’s what it sounds like.

[ SLAMS FISTS INTO THE EARTH ]

That’s so cool I’m almost flipping out here, Rean.

Because I don't know for sure if I was piloting one! What if it turns out I was just in some kind of ancient magic steamroller?

That would basically be the most disappointing thing ever, if you ask me, so I'm just gonna content myself with the knowledge that my world had giant robots, even if it wasn't mine

...and even if I definitely remember it kicking my ass

A giant magic steamroller big enough to face a giant mecha still counts in my book.

I can try and help you remember more? Ass kicking or otherwise.

[ he’s joking, he means the mechs. ]

Haha... I think I'd like to avoid going out of my way to remember getting my ass kicked if I can avoid it, but thanks

Really I should probably be getting to sleep, it was just. Really vivid still and I figured you'd be interested.

I haven't told Elliot and Crow yet, btw. I will next time we meet up though

I’m the first to know?

[ rean!!!!! ]

Honestly I’m not even sleepy after something like that. Thanks for telling me.
The memories we get are so real that I almost got lost in them in the beginning. They’re really wild.
But I wasn’t kidding about helping you remember. I kind of have my own
flesh
mecha thing

Yeah. I'm pretty sure if I woke up any of my other friends talking about mechs they'd kill me

Yeah I keep noticing that too... I've had a few as dreams, but they stick around too vividly to JUST be dreams. What really throws me off is when they hit me and I'm in the middle of doing something else. Think I've freaked out Crow a couple times like that

Oh, right. Elliot mentioned that... the giant that was chasing us in the castle, that was a reflection of that thing, right?

Same. It feels like you’re going back and you can’t stop what you’re feeling. I think I freaked Crow out on Thanksgiving and still left him hanging.

Yeah, a reflection of The Attack Titan. I’m glad you know now before you actually see it. I’m used to it already but
I won’t say it isn’t a little gross.

Yeah. Actually... I was with Crow when this one first hit, too. And I keep dreaming about it and waking up, so that's why I'm up right now, but it's probably a good thing the yetis were shoving fish at him before he could get too worried.

I can't believe that's a sentence I've had to type because it's a thing that actually happened.

Haha yeah... when Elliot described it I told him I couldn't decide if it was cool or gross and eventually settled on "both"

Be prepared to type and see crazier. I’ve been able to strike “got stuck on a giant spinning snake by wires” off the list.

All side effects considered, it’s still pretty cool. I’ll show you sometime.
And if you’re from the same past life as Elliot, you’ll get something cool too. Mecha or not.

Do I even want to know...?

I look forward to it!

Yeah, he's filled me in on bits and pieces. I can't say I'm not excited for some of it, at least.

We were sent on a Retrospec group mission to Magatus, and one of the things we had to do was find a jewel to open a door. Thing was that the jewel was on the tip of a giant Ouroboros’ tail, and it wasn’t keen on someone stealing. The two other girls with me fought with it and I went in to get it, with the 3DMG. That thing I used at the mansion.

I’ll surprise you.

Woah. That's...

I keep trying to think of a word for it but all I've got is "intense." Maybe I'll get more eloquent when this stuff stops completely blowing my mind.

I will try to ready myself for this so I don't freak out when you do.

You know, I remember picking fights on the network on my first day with the app because no one was taking the state of the world seriously. Memes and jokes everywhere.
It was mind blowing for me in a different way.

I can see that... but I think it's important to try to find a balance.

If we spend all our time focusing on how dire everything is - and it definitely IS, don't get me wrong - we're just gonna fall apart worrying ourselves to death. So it's only natural that people fall back on humor to cope

Buuuut it's bad if people just laugh things off entirely, too.

It’s one of the bigger lessons I learned on this thing, yeah.

Life’s a little too short to be too much of a hard ass. And you never know when things will flip upside down. Enjoy everyday like it’s the last one, but don’t forget about tomorrow.

[ . . . ]

Sorry.

Yeah... I think that's a good way to sum it up. Haha, now we're really getting into some late-night philosophy, though, huh?

Hm? Sorry for what?

For late-night philosophy. I sound like some motivational speaker again.

Haha, I'm the last person you have to apologize to for something like that, no worries

I've been called out on it plenty of times. Kind of nice to have someone to bounce it off of that isn't going to instantly call me cheesy.

I’m glad. It just comes out, you know?

One of Elliot’s cousin’s taped me making a speech after getting me worked up. It’s still on YouTube somewhere I think.

Right! You don't even think about it, you just say what you're feeling, and then people call you out. "I don't know how you don't crack up with those cheesy speeches..."

Sigh, no one understands heartfelt oration.

I'm not sure if I should be tempted to look that up or spare you the further embarrassment.

[ just pretend it’s him ok ]

https://youtu.be/ZXsQAXx_ao0
I’m not saying I’m embarrassed by it, actually.
It still motivates me when I need it.

[A few minute pause while Rean watches.]

Huh! That is pretty inspiring, actually.

[It also makes him feel more than a little self-conscious about how unmotivated he usually is... but Eren doesn't need to know that!]

It's good, though, that it doesn't bother you. Being invested in other people's wellbeing like this... I think it's a good thing, anyway.

[ he does need to know. soon. ]

If that can help anyone, even for a second, I’m already glad. A second is all you need to change.
And I’ll stop filling your head with these, promise.

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