I wanted to crash the symbols. [ he was the devilās child. ] And I like the music ācause of you, soā [ live performances were the best of the artist was good. ] I donāt doubt it.
[ ever since they traded things online when they were younger, and elliot being into it, especially the violinā! he was shown a lot more in music than his aggressive guitar strumming and hoarse screaming in the background tastes. ]
Canāt wait for my front row seat to see you play at the wedding.
[ eren youāre supposed to pay attention to the wedding ]
[ you did much more than win him over elliot . . .
but suddenly, eren gives an awkward quirk of lips, rubbing the back of his neck with his free hand. heās forgetting this is actually a wedding. ]
Iāll stand, then. [ then heāll get the best seat in the house! like. better than front seats. anyway, though, the awkward in his smile almost seems apologetic. because it is, and his palm covers half his face. ] I didnāt even ask who they were.
[ he just got intensely excited about his boyfriend playing at an event. ]
[ well, okay. heāll nod to that. itās a deal. heāll have the whole front row to him!! to bask in the glory of elliotās instrumentation. ]
I think I heard that name at the dojo, once. [ but he didnāt get a chance to actually talk to him, or meet himā he was probably absorbed in getting regains or giving some sparring tips of his own. ] Met them here?
It's going really well! The boss is good, and the rest of the staff's nice too. And it's really nice to have a steady income. Street performing is so...unpredictable, you know?
Itās even better when youāre getting paid for something you love doing.
[ in actuality, erenās own income as an airman was fairly mediocre if you compared it to how much he actually has and spends. thank u dad, for not being an asshole when it came to learning about investing and babyās first cash. then again that was before eren said ānoā to medicine . . . ]
I need to show you how to apply that, if you want. Thatās how I get my stuff running.
[ that cash, index fund, THE CRAzy things youād think eren wouldnāt know. ]
[Elliot knows what Eren means by that. He's well aware that Even invests and that's why he doesn't have to worry about money so much. He knows he should learn one of these days but...
Jokingly:]
Hehe, are you saying there's something wrong with my plan to marry a rich airmen?
[ what?? whatās a joke?? not that eren canāt differentiate between joking tones and the like, butā my plan to marry a rich airman, airman, airman, man, man, man, man, man . . . . . . there it goes. echoing. in his head.
that was a joke! but eren is speechless, his face a dark shade of purple with how much it has surpassed red in a matter of moments. thanks to facetime, you get to see it. he opens his mouth, closes his mouth, lips spreading out in a smile that didnāt know how else to express that thought other than looking like a grade-a dumbo and making his cheeks hurt ]
Nān, neh, [ see, no words! the sure sign that youāve got one eren jaeger right in the palm of your hand. heās so committed that, in actuality, itās something that could very well be up ahead if they worked. gahā he doesnāt know whether to look embarrassed, or happy, or embarrassed that he looks happy????? heās dumb ] Thā thatās, well, itās not . . . Nhuo, no. Iām, yeah.
[ the last time he got like this, they confessed. he needs to cover his face. the moment is golden, take a picture. ]
[Okay Elliot can't help it, he bursts out laughing at Eren's response. That face and the stuttering was just too good. He'll take a moment to screencap the screen- because oh Yes he's getting a photo of this]
Hahaha Eren, breathe, it's okay. I was kidding, okay? It's too soon to be thinking about that.
[ is that going on instagram, or his personal collection of flustered eren photos
but now you see why heās all choked up!!! the laugh only makes him rub his face more intensely to smack the eggplant color off of him. he looks embarrassing either way in this situation, whether it was because he entertained the idea with no problems beyond flustered dokis, for like three seconds, or because he couldnāt actually speak real words just because of the m word so soon.
it was a joke. breathe, boy. youāve known each other for years but youāre only two months into dating!! ]
Iā [ he swallows, still smiling sheepishly. he prays to all the gods alive that elliot doesnāt think heās a rusher, or that heās going to be, it most definitely is too soon, but. you know how to get him good, huh. this is proof of your power. ] Yeah, I know. Dā donāt get the wrong idea, or anything, I was just . . . [ seeing his life flash before his eyes. ] Weāllā focus on the now.
[His personal collection, don't worry. He'd never post embarrassing photos of Eren even if it would get him so many followers. So many.
but the poor guy, took it so hard. He gives him a warm and sympathetic smile]
N-no, it's okay! No wrong ideas. [It was nice though, that he didn't react terribly to the idea. He saw that smile] I'd like to finish college first before I do anything like that, anyway...
[ i canāt believe eren is a dormant viral internet sensation. one post is all it takes to unlock his true power: millions of views.
heās glad. the warmth in his smile is at least enough to soothe right along with his words. gradually, that purple is easing back into light pink, all until itās left his cheeks and just hangs on his ears last. this time with his shirt, he rubs at his temple. haha. sweaty. ]
Me too. I finish technical training in December for Security Forces. [ thatās one extra step towards officerā then itās getting through the air force academy for his degree, earn his credits, climb the ranks-! ] You got your major, yet?
[If they ever go broke, they'll know what to do to get money back fast]
December? Haha, almost there then! [You can do it! And oh that question, he rubs the back of his neck] W-Working on it. I just applied for a couple more scholarships. I wanna hear back from them before declaring it. Y-you know, in case my aunt and uncle ... [He trails off, but it's pretty clear what his concern is - being cut off. Especially after Angela got thrown out]
[ eren gets where he wants to go with that, raising a brow before they furrow at the thought. he hates that. he hates, hates, hates that, so bad, and knows exactly what to do with it. ]
In case they what? [ he doesn't say it like he's questioning what it was— he says it as if he were defying them. ] As far as I know, you don't need them to pay a thing.
[ eren could just be like āiāll pay for itā, but itās the same thing he told angelaā there are some things in life that are far more satisfying and self liberating to do on your own than with dependance. eren was proof of that same thing, and he successfully lives alone without a drop from his father. sure they had to give the push and he had to start somewhere, soā theyāre giving to start here, too. he leans into the screen. ]
Youāre gonna pay for it. Iāll teach you in a week. You wonāt need to worry about them when itās all on you.
[ and keep showing him the ropes along the way. day trade, honey. ]
[Crap. He brought this up again. And this time, he doubts he can evade it with a distracting joke like before. Tricks like that only work once.
He hesitates, worrying his lip as he steels himself up]
...N-No thank you, Eren.
[He swallows. Man, he wishes the earth would swallow him up right now]
I mean- i-it's good that you're helping Angela, you should. S-She's your family. And she's really independent, so she'd make use of it...
B-But...if you taught me, I-I'd just do what you say. Without thinking about it. I-I'm pretty weak like that. But that wouldn't be any better than ... [What he'd do with his aunt and uncle.] A-And I'd always feel indebted to you, and that's not good for our relationship...
So...I'm s-sorry. I'm grateful, but [He glances to the side, so he's not looking at Eren's face] I...I have to find my own way to be free. Even if it takes a little longer.
[ eren goes through a lot of visible emotions that elliot can probably guess, even without looking at him. he stares with confusion, tempted to interrupt him the more he speaks. his eyes fill with indignation for what he hears, and he has to bite the inside of his mouth to stay quiet. thereās even a moment where he has to look away, close his eyes and let those words float into his ears instead of punching them gone. it was none of that, none of that.
his lips part, but nothing comes out, even after elliotās finished speaking. iāll just do what you say, without thinking. iām pretty weak like that. it boils his blood to hear it, the same way elliot hadnāt liked it when eren belittled himself. quiet. donāt yell. youāll make it worse.
eren didnāt want to force anything into him, butā he also didnāt want him to keep thinking that way either. he could say many things, like how he was completely wrong, that he didnāt get it, thatā he didnāt get how he could think that. heāll have to trust whatās coming from the heart now. elliotās . . . done a lot for him, so you can you bet that heās learned a thing or two when it came to talking. sometimesā you had to speak each otherās language. he wishes he could grab his hand just so he could feel how serious he was about it. ]
āYour violin, your instruments. [ he looks straight into the camera, and while his eyes pierce, he hopes elliot can look at them. theyāre intense with emotion. ] Howād you learn to play them?
[Gold Star to resisting the urge to yell Eren. We all know how much you love yelling. Gold Star.
Elliot still doesn't quite look at the screen. He knows Eren well enough that he knows it's a leading question, that Eren has some kind of point to make. Eren wants to help him, he knows that. Eren is always looking after him, which Elliot is grateful for that. He wouldn't know what his life would be like without Eren, but he's very sure it'd be a lot more miserable.
But he still had to make sure he did things to stand on his own two feet sometimes.]
T-Teachers taught me. [There's no point in denying that] But- I wasn't dating any of them. I could go against what they taught without feeling...bad about it.
[Well besides his mom, but he was a little kid and she's dead now so that's a moot point.
He glances at the screen and sees Eren's intense emotions, and he hesitates a little. He's really not good at the face to face confrontation...or the any kind of confrontation really. Especially when he cared so much for the person he was confronting.]
...L-Look, how about a compromise? Gimme a year to try to figure it out on my own. A-And if I don't manage in a year ... I'll let you teach me.
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[So embarrassing!! But yeah, he's clearly happy]
Yeah! I love going to the orchestra. And it'll be even better with you there.
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My first time going to one of these. Wellā I think Dad tried to take me when I was little, once.
[ that. didnāt work out too that well. ]
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[And that it did not go great.]
Well, I hope you like! Some people find it boring, but there's nothing like hearing a live orchestra.
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[ ever since they traded things online when they were younger, and elliot being into it, especially the violinā! he was shown a lot more in music than his aggressive guitar strumming and hoarse screaming in the background tastes. ]
Canāt wait for my front row seat to see you play at the wedding.
[ eren youāre supposed to pay attention to the wedding ]
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[Score one for music!!]
U-um, you know the families of the bride and groom get the front row, right? It is their wedding.
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but suddenly, eren gives an awkward quirk of lips, rubbing the back of his neck with his free hand. heās forgetting this is actually a wedding. ]
Iāll stand, then. [ then heāll get the best seat in the house! like. better than front seats. anyway, though, the awkward in his smile almost seems apologetic. because it is, and his palm covers half his face. ] I didnāt even ask who they were.
[ he just got intensely excited about his boyfriend playing at an event. ]
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[You can have front seat row there!!!]
It's Sorey and Mikleo. They're really nice!
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I think I heard that name at the dojo, once. [ but he didnāt get a chance to actually talk to him, or meet himā he was probably absorbed in getting regains or giving some sparring tips of his own. ] Met them here?
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He gives a nod] Yeah. Sorey was really nice to me when I first got the app. And they both work at Club Sunshine now, so I see them at work.
[You know where he performs on weekends]
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Howās that going, actually?
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[ in actuality, erenās own income as an airman was fairly mediocre if you compared it to how much he actually has and spends. thank u dad, for not being an asshole when it came to learning about investing and babyās first cash. then again that was before eren said ānoā to medicine . . . ]
I need to show you how to apply that, if you want. Thatās how I get my stuff running.
[ that cash, index fund, THE CRAzy things youād think eren wouldnāt know. ]
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[Elliot knows what Eren means by that. He's well aware that Even invests and that's why he doesn't have to worry about money so much. He knows he should learn one of these days but...
Jokingly:]
Hehe, are you saying there's something wrong with my plan to marry a rich airmen?
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that was a joke! but eren is speechless, his face a dark shade of purple with how much it has surpassed red in a matter of moments. thanks to facetime, you get to see it. he opens his mouth, closes his mouth, lips spreading out in a smile that didnāt know how else to express that thought other than looking like a grade-a dumbo and making his cheeks hurt ]
Nān, neh, [ see, no words! the sure sign that youāve got one eren jaeger right in the palm of your hand. heās so committed that, in actuality, itās something that could very well be up ahead if they worked. gahā he doesnāt know whether to look embarrassed, or happy, or embarrassed that he looks happy????? heās dumb ] Thā thatās, well, itās not . . . Nhuo, no. Iām, yeah.
[ the last time he got like this, they confessed. he needs to cover his face. the moment is golden, take a picture. ]
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Hahaha Eren, breathe, it's okay. I was kidding, okay? It's too soon to be thinking about that.
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but now you see why heās all choked up!!! the laugh only makes him rub his face more intensely to smack the eggplant color off of him. he looks embarrassing either way in this situation, whether it was because he entertained the idea with no problems beyond flustered dokis, for like three seconds, or because he couldnāt actually speak real words just because of the m word so soon.
it was a joke. breathe, boy. youāve known each other for years but youāre only two months into dating!! ]
Iā [ he swallows, still smiling sheepishly. he prays to all the gods alive that elliot doesnāt think heās a rusher, or that heās going to be, it most definitely is too soon, but. you know how to get him good, huh. this is proof of your power. ] Yeah, I know. Dā donāt get the wrong idea, or anything, I was just . . . [ seeing his life flash before his eyes. ] Weāllā focus on the now.
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but the poor guy, took it so hard. He gives him a warm and sympathetic smile]
N-no, it's okay! No wrong ideas. [It was nice though, that he didn't react terribly to the idea. He saw that smile] I'd like to finish college first before I do anything like that, anyway...
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heās glad. the warmth in his smile is at least enough to soothe right along with his words. gradually, that purple is easing back into light pink, all until itās left his cheeks and just hangs on his ears last. this time with his shirt, he rubs at his temple. haha. sweaty. ]
Me too. I finish technical training in December for Security Forces. [ thatās one extra step towards officerā then itās getting through the air force academy for his degree, earn his credits, climb the ranks-! ] You got your major, yet?
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December? Haha, almost there then! [You can do it! And oh that question, he rubs the back of his neck] W-Working on it. I just applied for a couple more scholarships. I wanna hear back from them before declaring it. Y-you know, in case my aunt and uncle ... [He trails off, but it's pretty clear what his concern is - being cut off. Especially after Angela got thrown out]
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In case they what? [ he doesn't say it like he's questioning what it was— he says it as if he were defying them. ] As far as I know, you don't need them to pay a thing.
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T-That's not true. They're paying for part of my tuition. I tried to make it all my own, I did, but...it wasn't enough.
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[ eren could just be like āiāll pay for itā, but itās the same thing he told angelaā there are some things in life that are far more satisfying and self liberating to do on your own than with dependance. eren was proof of that same thing, and he successfully lives alone without a drop from his father. sure they had to give the push and he had to start somewhere, soā theyāre giving to start here, too. he leans into the screen. ]
Youāre gonna pay for it. Iāll teach you in a week. You wonāt need to worry about them when itās all on you.
[ and keep showing him the ropes along the way. day trade, honey. ]
Youāll be as free as youāre meant to be.
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He hesitates, worrying his lip as he steels himself up]
...N-No thank you, Eren.
[He swallows. Man, he wishes the earth would swallow him up right now]
I mean- i-it's good that you're helping Angela, you should. S-She's your family. And she's really independent, so she'd make use of it...
B-But...if you taught me, I-I'd just do what you say. Without thinking about it. I-I'm pretty weak like that. But that wouldn't be any better than ... [What he'd do with his aunt and uncle.] A-And I'd always feel indebted to you, and that's not good for our relationship...
So...I'm s-sorry. I'm grateful, but [He glances to the side, so he's not looking at Eren's face] I...I have to find my own way to be free. Even if it takes a little longer.
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his lips part, but nothing comes out, even after elliotās finished speaking. iāll just do what you say, without thinking. iām pretty weak like that. it boils his blood to hear it, the same way elliot hadnāt liked it when eren belittled himself. quiet. donāt yell. youāll make it worse.
eren didnāt want to force anything into him, butā he also didnāt want him to keep thinking that way either. he could say many things, like how he was completely wrong, that he didnāt get it, thatā he didnāt get how he could think that. heāll have to trust whatās coming from the heart now. elliotās . . . done a lot for him, so you can you bet that heās learned a thing or two when it came to talking. sometimesā you had to speak each otherās language. he wishes he could grab his hand just so he could feel how serious he was about it. ]
āYour violin, your instruments. [ he looks straight into the camera, and while his eyes pierce, he hopes elliot can look at them. theyāre intense with emotion. ] Howād you learn to play them?
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Elliot still doesn't quite look at the screen. He knows Eren well enough that he knows it's a leading question, that Eren has some kind of point to make. Eren wants to help him, he knows that. Eren is always looking after him, which Elliot is grateful for that. He wouldn't know what his life would be like without Eren, but he's very sure it'd be a lot more miserable.
But he still had to make sure he did things to stand on his own two feet sometimes.]
T-Teachers taught me. [There's no point in denying that] But- I wasn't dating any of them. I could go against what they taught without feeling...bad about it.
[Well besides his mom, but he was a little kid and she's dead now so that's a moot point.
He glances at the screen and sees Eren's intense emotions, and he hesitates a little. He's really not good at the face to face confrontation...or the any kind of confrontation really. Especially when he cared so much for the person he was confronting.]
...L-Look, how about a compromise? Gimme a year to try to figure it out on my own. A-And if I don't manage in a year ... I'll let you teach me.
O-okay?
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