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[usurpers]

[ and then eren had a ptsd flashback montage ]

The worst thing you can do to anything that breathes.
What’s bdsm?

[fiddlestick]

[MY GOD EREN, JUST SAY "NO ITS NOT MY THING" LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE]

Okay, right. That's a no then.

[a pause, why this]

Um, it's a kink thing?
Like that stuff in 50 Shades of Gray?
Except that does it wrong, as I got to hear in great detail.

Roommate movie night was really weird this week.

[usurpers]

Wait you were talking about kinks?

[ . . . ]

Still no.
You guys watched what?

[fiddlestick]

Yes, I was!
Pretty sure kinks are the only place you could argue bondage to be a good thing.
But that's fine, I didn't really get the appeal of it either.

50 Shades of Gray.

[usurpers]

Only being chained up and gagged to know it’ll never be a good thing, whatever weirdo fantasy people can sexualize in that.

[ YEAH HE’S KINKSHAMING, FIGHT HIM!!!!! ]

Work’s WIFI is blocked for websites so I had to ask a patient and all I got was a weird smile. Is this porn?

[fiddlestick]

[Okay there's a delay in his response, he can't believe he has to fight kinkshaming over bondage.]

Okay but the times you experienced it were very bad situations.
I'm sure it feels different when it's voluntary and with someone you completely trust.
You know, like being naked when it's just the two of us feels very different from being naked in public.

Not saying I want to do it, but... [CALM. DOWN.]

[And lord, he actually doesn't know what 50 Shades of Gray is. He's tempted to just not say anything and let Eren live in bliss. But it's too late, he knows Eren. If he doesn't get an answer here, he'll research it on his own later]

Uh...kinda?
It was this romance novel about this lady falling in love with this billionaire guy who has a bondage and BDSM kink.
BDSM being an umbrella term for people into dominate/submissive, bondage, whips, chains, masochism, etc.
It's really badly written and the movie is really boring.
But it's really popular with women your mom's age....somehow.

[usurpers]

Okay.

[ first thing eren texts: mom, do you like 50 shades?

god okay, but— he has a point and while this is definitely not up eren’s alley for the depicted personal reasons, what if . . . this was a desire his boyfriend was having. would he deny it. would he still flat out kinkshame. ]

Did you want to try something like that?

[fiddlestick]

[Eren is that a truth you really want to know. Is it?]

Not really?
Someone explained it, but honestly I don't see the appeal.
I even kinda figured you wouldn't either but
I wanted to check instead of just assuming?

[usurpers]

You wouldn’t have been wrong but, thanks. I don’t like it and just thinking about whips makes me nervous, I’m not going to lie to you. I’d never be able to strike you and I don’t like dominance/submission. It rubs me the wrong way.

[ . . . but ]

But for you, if you’d ever want to, I’d try something. You’re right about it being different circumstances.

[fiddlestick]

Haha, thanks but I think I'm okay. I can't see myself striking you either.
Or even being able to strike hard enough to leave a mark.
And the whole dominance thing seemed way too controlling for my liking.

If anything, I'm relieved we're on the same page.

[usurpers]

Another truth: thank god.

So
Is there anything else you have a thing for that I don’t know about? Or curious?

[fiddlestick]

Well...

[hmm.]



Are you alone right now?

[usurpers]

I’m on break shift. And the lounge is empty.

[fiddlestick]

[Okay good enough.]

Okay.
Well, I wouldn't mind switching things up sometime.
You know, try top?

[usurpers]

[ mother of god

]

Yes.
Hold on I can’t stay here.

[fiddlestick]

[THIS IS WHY HE ASKED IF YOU'RE ALONE EREN!!!]

Haha, okay.
Let me know when you're back.

[usurpers]

Don’t need to.

[ HE IS HERE, in the bathroom, that he beelined for five seconds ago ]

I’ve thought about this for months.

[fiddlestick]

[So fast Eren, so thirsty]

You have? You could've said something.

[usurpers]

I only said it in February, when we were separated. I didn’t want to keep pushing you for it until you felt like it.
Wow, just. Waiting paid off.

[fiddlestick]

You wouldn't have been pushing if you reminded me of it.
I forgot that you said it, I'm sorry.

[....]

Speaking of February though...
I'd like to do something like that again.

[usurpers]

A lot happened after Feburary.

[ he does not blame you!! and, oh ]

Phone sex or pants off in Bosuma?

[fiddlestick]

That's true.

The first one. Not now though, since you're at work.

[usurpers]

That doesn’t mean we can’t do foreplay. And I’d like the second one, too.

[fiddlestick]

Something tells me we wouldn't stop at foreplay.

[Because what is self-control with your thirst]

Haha, we can do the second one too....as long as you're there this time.

[usurpers]

:)

[ allow this happiness ]

I’m already there.
Do you ever think about me wearing anything different for you?