... You can judge both. Self-awareness makes a difference, Eren. We aren't perfect people, and we will never be perfect people, but it's fine to point out what you know is wrong even if it's something you've done. Isn't that growth?
I know both, but I don’t want to preach something I know I’d still do if the situation called for it. Killing out of jealousy or spite is wrong. Mass killing is wrong. Killing in general is wrong. But I’d still kill, and I wouldn’t feel remorse. I’ve done it already out of hate, out of anger, and out of necessity. I don’t know if accepting that is walking backwards or being self aware, but that’s how I see it.
You aren’t wrong in condemning her and not wanting to be like her, Clover. I wouldn’t want you to. And given our circumstances, I don’t think you ever will.
I shouldn't feel as touched as I do. I don't know if it's a good thing that we're similar in this, but I don't care either.
I love you, Eren.
[ In some ways, they really are brother and sister, and that's why those messages and those dreams hurt so much. She wants to be able to reject them easily, but doubt grows as fast as weeds in her mind. ]
[ She doesn't think it'll help her now, but she'll try it. Maybe knowing Eren's near will take her back to a time before all of Retrospec and she can sleep like she used to. ]
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I don't want to understand someone who says she'd rip off all her sister's skin and tear it to pieces in a fit of jealousy.
[ The problem is she understands Four's thinking. What got her to be that way, she doesn't know, but she can understand how deep her envy can go. ]
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So you do know why she’s like that.
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That's why I want to condemn her.
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I know both, but I don’t want to preach something I know I’d still do if the situation called for it. Killing out of jealousy or spite is wrong. Mass killing is wrong. Killing in general is wrong. But I’d still kill, and I wouldn’t feel remorse. I’ve done it already out of hate, out of anger, and out of necessity. I don’t know if accepting that is walking backwards or being self aware, but that’s how I see it.
You aren’t wrong in condemning her and not wanting to be like her, Clover. I wouldn’t want you to. And given our circumstances, I don’t think you ever will.
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No one would be able to convince me it would be wrong. No one would be able to convince me it wasn't right.
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Even in that, we make a pair.
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I love you, Eren.
[ In some ways, they really are brother and sister, and that's why those messages and those dreams hurt so much. She wants to be able to reject them easily, but doubt grows as fast as weeds in her mind. ]
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Love you too, Clover. You know you can always come and take over the guest bed. I’ll make mom’s sleepy tea.
[ the special tea they probably always had served by mom when anxiety plagued the sleep schedule. the power of herbs. ]
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I'll take you up on it tomorrow.
[ She doesn't think it'll help her now, but she'll try it. Maybe knowing Eren's near will take her back to a time before all of Retrospec and she can sleep like she used to. ]