[ the part that mattered most was her acknowledging that, so itās good enough for eren. he wouldnāt even want the thank you. now, he canāt say much about assumptionsā he does that constantly and itās hard to get some reigns on that with difficult people, but. heās getting better, he likes to think. heās working on it. he canāt always be as right as he thinks he is. ]
[though it does... hit her, a little. that the same Lina that Clover knew isn't Lina as she is now. Clover had started to get to know her, to see what she'd turned into and the kind of woman she was trying to become, but... but. Eren would be able to know Lina better than her own sister had. and that would hang over Lina for their entire friendship if she let it, and right now she wasn't in the mood to fight it, but she wasn't really in the mood to succumb to it, either.]
Is there... anything you wanted to know in particular? [a dry, humorless laugh chased that sentence.] I'm not good at talking about myself.
[ a gesture!! and to think, eren was usually the one that thought this about himself at times. he was picky, he was probably hard to deal with, but it didnāt mean he wasnāt social with those he wanted to be with. ]
Start from there. I only cook when I have to.
[ thatās almost always, especially if elliot weesely stays the night . . . dear god the horror ]
[no, that's. as good a place to start as any. and focusing on the one thing that still, 100% makes her happy might be a good way to get her to move forward and pretend like things are going to be... not okay, but. not a complete living nightmare.]
So I... started learning how to cook in the orphanage. Because I used to be a really angry kid, and they decided I needed a more positive outlet for that energy. So I've been cooking for, um, most of my life? Most of my life that matters, at least. [all of it matters and she hopes he doesn't preempt her on that because she knows.] Mostly these days I just cook for my roommate to make sure she's eating things that aren't nutrient shakes.
I met her when she was in . . . My friendās body.
[ yeah when that happened, but erenās interested in hearing as she goes through the rest. it makes him almost smile, because, same hat. eren makes a short pointing gesture to his drum set while he finishes on a last sip of water. ]
Thatās what they gave me for my outlet.
[ he was a very, very angry child when dad passed. ]
[oh! they've met. okay. that's good, at least. hearing that they know each other does make Lina smile, though it's weak, a ghost of what she'd normally have on her face when thinking about Jen—lately, at least. when she notices the drum kit, she tries to force a fuller one.]
There isn't a lot that can get aggression out more than drumming, I guess. [thinking about the time in the orphanage is... difficult, right now. but as long as she doesn't focus on her family, she'll be okay.] They didn't trust me with the stove for a month. They said it was too much fire. Just because one time I accidentally found one matchbook where it didn't belong!
[that was before she found her family, of course. when she was just Carmelina and she had no idea what she was doing but wasn't old enough to make any choices for herself yet. simpler times. the corners of her eyes crinkled up just a little.]
I struck one and set the rest of the book on fire.
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Thereās nothing stopping you.
[ by all meansā they have all night. ]
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[though it does... hit her, a little. that the same Lina that Clover knew isn't Lina as she is now. Clover had started to get to know her, to see what she'd turned into and the kind of woman she was trying to become, but... but. Eren would be able to know Lina better than her own sister had. and that would hang over Lina for their entire friendship if she let it, and right now she wasn't in the mood to fight it, but she wasn't really in the mood to succumb to it, either.]
Is there... anything you wanted to know in particular? [a dry, humorless laugh chased that sentence.] I'm not good at talking about myself.
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[ a gesture!! and to think, eren was usually the one that thought this about himself at times. he was picky, he was probably hard to deal with, but it didnāt mean he wasnāt social with those he wanted to be with. ]
Start from there. I only cook when I have to.
[ thatās almost always, especially if elliot weesely stays the night . . . dear god the horror ]
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[no, that's. as good a place to start as any. and focusing on the one thing that still, 100% makes her happy might be a good way to get her to move forward and pretend like things are going to be... not okay, but. not a complete living nightmare.]
So I... started learning how to cook in the orphanage. Because I used to be a really angry kid, and they decided I needed a more positive outlet for that energy. So I've been cooking for, um, most of my life? Most of my life that matters, at least. [all of it matters and she hopes he doesn't preempt her on that because she knows.] Mostly these days I just cook for my roommate to make sure she's eating things that aren't nutrient shakes.
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[ yeah when that happened, but erenās interested in hearing as she goes through the rest. it makes him almost smile, because, same hat. eren makes a short pointing gesture to his drum set while he finishes on a last sip of water. ]
Thatās what they gave me for my outlet.
[ he was a very, very angry child when dad passed. ]
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There isn't a lot that can get aggression out more than drumming, I guess. [thinking about the time in the orphanage is... difficult, right now. but as long as she doesn't focus on her family, she'll be okay.] They didn't trust me with the stove for a month. They said it was too much fire. Just because one time I accidentally found one matchbook where it didn't belong!
[that was before she found her family, of course. when she was just Carmelina and she had no idea what she was doing but wasn't old enough to make any choices for herself yet. simpler times. the corners of her eyes crinkled up just a little.]
I struck one and set the rest of the book on fire.