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[usurpers]

EREN JAEGER

TATAKAI INTENSIFIES

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rubs hands together

[blacksong]

[Oh, right. Here goes then................]

right, my bad
... it's rose
so if you could not tell my sisters about this i'd appreciate that

[usurpers]

It’s safe with me. Like what I’ll tell you.

[ because he’s sort of. in the same place. a lot of things fall into place about rose now, though. things that he’ll ask afterwards. he knows they’ll keep this between each other.

it’s a mutual thing. ]

In my memories, as soon as you get a power, you have thirteen years left to live before you die. So that power isn’t lost, you get fed to the next person in line so they can inherent it. It’s a hell cycle that went on for centuries and the world was just digging a deeper grave with it. Soon it’d just die.

I had a choice with the powers my past father gave to me, and the person before him and so on. Either keep going, die and save the world, or think about how horrible it was and give up hundreds of years of progress because I was chicken shit, and die anyway.

I chose to save it, no matter what would happen to me. I don’t know exactly what I was planning, but I know that no one would inherit my titan from me. No one would inherit any titan after I was done. It didn’t matter how many people I ended up killing, or how many friends hated me or how much of a villain I was.

I just knew I had to do it, for a bigger cause.

[blacksong]

jesus
yeah that's a similar enough problem alright
is your "titan" power thing when you turn into a super giant?

[usurpers]

It’s what it was.

But that’s the one. The more shifters I eat with it the more abilities it racks up.

[blacksong]

and after talking to zee you were able to... for sure not die after 13 years?
or did he do something else

[usurpers]

If I regained it where I left off, I think I only had three or four years. Maybe less.
He said he was going to talk to tech support and see to neutralizing it. It was pretty technical.
They don’t want us to die by any means. Maybe they can do the same with your parasite, now that he’s coming back.

[blacksong]

despite all the things that happen that nearly kill us
but shit i might as well i guess
it's the only option i can think of still
i still don't know what my time limit is but
i think there's a pretty good chance i could go insane before then anyways

[usurpers]

It takes a lot to kill us. Only these sort of things.

It’s that flower in your eye? It just grows inside you?

[blacksong]

it's feeding off of me, somehow
i still don't really know all the details but
i remember saying that at some point, it'll consume me entirely
and when it does it'll destroy the world
this thing also somehow brought my past self back to life so
honestly... i don't doubt that it could do something like that

[usurpers]

Retrospec definitely doesn’t want that.

I know taking it out looks way too easy. Did you ever try that?

[blacksong]

i probably should've, but no
... call me a wuss if you want but it hurt like crazy when it first popped up
still aches, if i'm being honest
and i've never really been keen on repeating pain like that
at this point tho i think there's a chance of it regenerating even if i tried

[usurpers]

[ eren sawed his own leg off for the perfect hobo cosplay so ]

What if you didnt feel anything?
Like anesthesia.

[blacksong]

[If only everyone could be as hardcore as Eren. (Maybe.)]

huh
i'd try that out then

[usurpers]

I don’t know how I’d convince the hospital.
But there’s another way. I’m studying for paramedicine and my dad was a surgeon. I can try something.

[blacksong]

alright well keep me posted on that
honestly i probably could've lived with this if didn't turn out to be some parasite from hell
now i think it's about time i figured how to get it out

[usurpers]

If you can’t talk to Zee by the time I have everything I need, I’ll do it.

You’re not going through that again.

[blacksong]

i dunno functional immortality might have its uses
but on the other hand i'd prefer to avoid the hospital
that bill's gonna haunt me for the rest of my life

[She's joking! Kind of. Mostly because not joking would mean admitting that she's honestly extremely cynical and pessimistic about her situation, and she's a bit tired of herself in that aspect.]

but thanks
i appreciate it

[usurpers]

I won’t haunt you.

[ laughs A JOKE welcome to mr jaeger’s crazy O.R. ]

Don’t mention it. And I’ll be honest
It’s hard to find someone to talk about this with anyone.

[blacksong]

it's not like you can get rid of my bill

[eREN?? YOU'RE NOT A DOCTOR YET!!]

i get you
i felt like i was gonna go crazy for real not being able to talk about it
but every time i thought about mentioning it to someone i knew they'd just tell me i had to live or that i couldn't die
like yeah i get the sentiment but it doesn't fix my problem

[usurpers]

My dad’s will can.

[ . . . laughs, into space. ]

It’s either that or you’re wrong.
Killing is wrong, treating people like garbage is wrong, throwing your life away like that is wrong. I know it’s all wrong and I don’t wear shit eating grins when I remember doing it.
I just don’t feel anything from it either, anymore. And I guess that’s more than a little fucked up.

I was so dead set that I was just going through the motions to get there. And sometimes I feel like I still have to do that if Retrospec gets worse.

[blacksong]

[?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!]

I WAS JOKING YOU DON'T NEED TO WAIVE IT FOR ME

it probably is but what isn't anymore
like there are plenty of things that used to scare me or freak me out but
yeah, i don't feel anything from them anymore
it's hard to even remember what life was like without those things

are you planning on something if retrospec gets worse?

[usurpers]

I don’t know exactly what I could do, but I’m prepared to do something.
Anything to keep us alive.

[blacksong]

anything to keep us alive, huh
i'd say good luck but it's not like luck's done much
if it takes action, we'll take action