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12/18

[androidheart]

Might I bend your ear, dear cousin? : )

[usurpers]

you can try
what’s up?

[androidheart]

Well, stubborn eared cousin...

I thought I might pose you a question?




Which one of your acted first?
You, or Elliot?

Though I have a feeling I already know the answer...

[usurpers]

[ oh my god

small pause, but. she probably has a reason for asking beyond curiosity. he’s not going to try and bounce from it! ]

i did
what was your guess?

[androidheart]

Elliot's lack of courage compounded with your own surplus.

What made you realize that he had feelings for you?

[usurpers]

hey
👊

[ phone punchies! or noogies, however you see fit. even if it was true. ]

when he told me
but that was after i told him, i didn’t know before that
i figured we were just really good friends. but i had to take the risk somehow
you can’t just keep sitting on your hands with those things

[androidheart]

You never suspected that he had feelings for you?

[usurpers]

... no
honestly I was bad at those things
I didn’t even know he liked guys

[ which might be a little hard to miss so completely when he was even getting low key hit on. eren, you dense motherfucker. ]

do you like someone

[androidheart]

I see...

I do not know. : )

I am currently in the mindset of wondering if someone likes me. : )

[usurpers]

yeah? who?

[androidheart]

A very sweet friend of mine.

He can be rather sluggish and morose, and has great difficulty expressing his feelings.
The other day he...said some rather romantic things to me, and I am unsure of how to read it. I think perhaps, we are simply very close friends, but my mind is doing a funny little thing and continuing to wonder.

He said...

"When you're here, you're all that I can think about."

Very sweet of him!

[usurpers]

[ angela......... now that eren’s with elliot, he is quite a bit more aware of expression, at least he’s learning and that

does not sound like simple friendly conversation. he wouldn’t say that to a good friend. ]

is that what you told him

[androidheart]

I told him the truth.

That he put a song in my heart, and that I was having a wonderful time. That it was a beautiful night.

He then said "It's beautiful because of who I'm with."

What would you infer from that, Cousin Eren?

[usurpers]

you know i’m not the best person for this right

but that sounds like blatant flirting
“when you’re here you’re all i could think about”
“it’s beautiful bc of who i’m with”
i wouldn’t say that to a friend

[androidheart]

But you are the person that I trust, Eren. : )

Is that something you would say to some you liked? Someone that you want to kiss and take home for a night of gentle romance?

[usurpers]

[ GENTLE ROMANCE ]

ok angela calm down
i wouldn’t say that exactly bc it’s sounds like cheese movie scripts
but i’d tell elliot what i feel for him and i don’t feel that for anyone else

are you sure he’s not just trying to impress you to get a hook up

[androidheart]

Interesting...

I do not think that sex is what he wants? He is certainly not the type to try to charm his way into that sort of thing. He is so kind of gentle and quiet and unassuming. I can tell that he is sincere.

[usurpers]

people can do that when they want something
how long’ve you known him?

[androidheart]

A long time...Well, almost a year, maybe? But he's only been in Recolle since October?

You think he's trying to have sex with me?

[usurpers]

from another town or is this an internet thing
he could be some punk jock for all i know, the only thing i have to go off of is what you say
and you can have your way of describing things

i think he wants to get closer to you regardless
do you?

[androidheart]

Is it foolish that I don't want to say who? For his privacy...he is peculiar.
But kind. He has been through a lot. If I were to describe him...he is my opposite, in many ways.

Like I said, I am not sure if I like him or if I just care about him very much. I have not thought about whether or not I would let him have sex with me. Nor do I think he does.

[usurpers]

[ honestly— sex wasn’t the first thing he thought about when he got together. only after a few kisses did he start entertaining the idea. ]

i’m going to trust you on this but if i hear one weird thing

spend more time with him and pay attention to yourself
i went years thinking i cared about him as a friend when it was different the entire time
if i paid more attention i would’ve noticed earlier

[androidheart]

...Do you wish you had?

[usurpers]

a little
i wasted a lot of time worrying over nothing
that just pulls you back in everything

[androidheart]

Well it is a good thing that I am not wondering.

Sometimes I wonder if he's even capable of romantic interest. But then he says that stuff and...
I feel as though he is sending me mixed signals, and I am not sure how to proceed. I want to ask him how he feels, but that is easier said than done?

Perhaps I should ask his sister?