[ heās never seen elliot so upset before, enough that eren has a fairly suprised look on his face, opens his mouth to say something, then closes it again with pursing lips and a tight swallow. he sure saw elliot just get angry right now, for junior, while eren understood the corpsā reasoning behind their death tolls.
it takes a minute for eren to actually fall back into place, needing to stop himself from saying anything more and allowing elliot to continue. the shift was probably a good thing indeed, but eren might seem a little . . . baffled, still. impressed was a good word, too. heās thoroughly impressed and does not want to feel elliotās fury firsthand. wow.
ahem! š³ ]
I can see why if both of you do . . . [ if elton had the same base personality as elliot, wellā he was really easy to bond with, to open up to, at least for erenā when that had been difficult to do with others. it was a natural warmth of energy that just made you feel comfortable, and heās sure thatās necessary for any type of linking. ] His family wanted him there?
[Sorry about that Eren. Elliot just doesn't like unjust things like that, and knowing his boyfriend's other life suffered for it...well, it makes it a bit more personal.
But it's not like he can DO anything about it here, so it's best not to address it and let it pass. Focusing on answering about his memories helps.
Though his fury is as fierce as an angry puppy so what do you have to fear Eren seriously.]
...I dunno. There's still holes in my memory. [It's likely they did, but he wasn't sure] I know his dream was to attend the Heimdallr Music Academy in his hometown. Not sure yet why he didn't.
He did still get to play though. There was a music club at Thors, they even performed at a local church. It made him really happy.
[ he has to fear a wrath no one else sees and that is why he will always strive to make elliot the happiest boyfriend in the entire universe, including destroyed ones. and this definitely got unexpectedly cute.
it makes eren proud to see elliot doing what he loved now. it always did. filled him with a joy no one would take from him. he spins some of his drink around his glass before sipping, then taking the rest of the meats he had left earlier. all of them. maybe the shift really was a good ideaā get elliot going with music and you might as well see flowers popping up around them. ]
That just makes me even happier to know youāre going after music here. [ it was . . . his soulās longing. it was something they couldnāt take from him, even if elliot switched names or had a different hair color. eren never figured out what the other eren wanted if it werenāt for walls and titans, he was a victim to it. maybe . . . it really was the epitome of freedom, somehow. heād always be searching for it. ] But did he . . . always have magic? Or was that an academy thing?
He sees Eren's happy look on his face as he talks about the music, and it makes him happy to see, relaxing him some more]
Yeah, me too. Though I'm glad he hasn't given up completely either. [He could follow his dream more easily than the other Elliot could, and that made him feel lucky. But knowing that the other Elliot kept trying to find ways to pursue music? Made him feel more like it was as important to him as he thought. ] One time, he even decided to cheer Rean up by making him do street performing with him. He was pretty forceful about it too.
[He laughs a little at the memory. Dragged the guy through town to get instruments and everything. At the question, he pauses. Not badly, just thoughtfully]
I'm not sure. I know he got the ARCUS from the school, but I'm not sure about the rest of it. [He shrugs] Though I think his powers were pretty common in his world, really. Everything seems to run on some magically powered tech they call orbal technology. They even were studying about it on a midterm.
If there were more people here from that world, I probably wouldn't stand out much magically.
[ that sounds . . . lighthearted and fun. eren didnāt know if he could quite match up with the same caliber of memories, his were allā either tragic or violent. there is one that sticks out though, and with a smile that seems unbothered, even a chuckle with it as he watches elliot recall, heāll tuck it away for whenever heās got an opening.
but to the magic, eren clicks his tongue and shakes his head in disagreement. ]
Thatās what you think. [ more meat to the pot, this time for both of themā eren has abandoned the chop sticks to use his fingers. ] I bet Rean and Eltonās other teammates knew how valuable he was.
There are so many people here with so many different kinds of magic and you still stand out.
Awww. [Of course Eren would take that position. It's sweet to hear, and it does give him a small smile] Thanks Eren...
[Did the rest of Class VII find him valuable? They kept him around and got along with him, so surely there must've been something there. At least, he hopes so.
He pulls out some of the veggies out of the pot now]
[ eren gives him a lookā itās a smile that would probably say donāt thank me when itās true!, but! heās got his mouth full. in the meantime, since they were talking about self worth to some extent . . . he swallows. ]
Junior had a pretty impressive squad, too. Really impressive. [ eren doesnāt hold much contempt to it these daysā he took it harder when they were coming, and elliot was the one who shook him back into place when it started burying too deep into him. ] He ranked fifth in the class . . . Out of pure willpower. I can say for a fact that he fell pretty behind in skill compared to everyone else.
[ but he wasnāt being hard on himself at all! just realistically viewing facts, at least the ones he remembered. ] There was this one time, when he was a kid . . . [ his finger brushes across his chin. ] That he couldnāt get past the basics. You needed to get the balance mechanism under control if you wanted to pass and go to the maneuver gear. If you failed, they sent you back to the settlement.
Everyone passed and he was the only one failing. And it sucked becauseā [ he rubs his face, as if feeling second hand embarrassment. ] His adopted sister wouldnāt stop babying him in front of everyone. Trying to hand feed him, carrying him away from fist fights . . .
[ it was. really bad sometimes. ]
When he finally passed, because they found a defect in the beltā Thatās one of the first things he thought. That she wouldnāt need to babysit him anymore.
[ he shrugs a little. christ, itās like . . . remembering how much of a kid you were. ]
[He listens to the story, smiling sympathetically. Oh yes, the overprotective sibling, he knows that woe all too well. ]
Haha, Junior really was a kid if he thought that'd stop her from babysitting him. The only reason I'm safe from full Carlos-coddling is because he's not on the app.
[He did wish he could talk about these things with Carlos. He felt it put a distance between them. Still, it was nice knowing his brother wouldn't freak out every time he took up a task that was more dangerous than "playing with kittens". ]
[ haha, carlos. carlos was a great guy, but he knows that big brother protectiveness from a mile away. guess thereās really no way around it. older siblings just have some sort of weird complex implanted when the new baby is born. ]
Yeahā She saved his ass more than once.
[ a lot. she always had to because junior was a dumb. shifting his legs into brief stretch out, he props his arms up behind him. ]
Mikasa Ackerman. They took her in after her parents were murdered. Junior and his dad found them when they were making house calls. [ it got a little tense, butā eren feels like heās telling a story now. this memory didnāt bother him as much as the others. ] They couldnāt find her, though. Dad called the police, but Junior snuck off.
Not the smartest thing, but he doesnāt regret it. Any of it.
[ at least, rather harshly, he says pigs in a spiteful way. zero offense to actual swine, whoāre much better animals than those pestsā he did them a favor. well, junior, and despite the recklessness, itās something that he wouldnāt change. heād do it again. ]
They were going to sell her. She was just ten. [ eren swirls a chopstick in the broth, poking at the remaining pieces of meat floating in it, before hooking it under and placing them in their plates. ] He killed two, but only because he got lucky. She got the other one.
[ and after a rather distant pause: ]
Now that I think about itā she probably felt like she owed him somehow.
[That's uh....wow. Just wow. What do you even say to a story like that. On one hand, people who sell children are the worst, especially if it murdered her parents. Those were the kind of people you typically want to be locked away for the rest of their days.
On the other hand, hearing two little ten year olds straight up killed 3 guys is PRETTY unsettling too. Even if it sounded like they had little choice, and that world was very different from the one they lived now. What was he supposed to say...? Not like his Eren was the one to do it.
...
You know, let's just. Not address it. He clears his throat]
[ not that heād . . . be against doing it . . . which would also say some things about the eren now, but. yes. maybe itās best not to address too deep, else elliot might start getting unnecessarily worried.
eren had his moral compass, then and now, and some things wouldnāt be so easily changed. (why was talking about memories a good idea, erenās were all tense). snapping out of some quiet thought, he takes his glass and clinks it against elliotās. ]
[Yeah, exactly. It wasn't that the kids did anything wrong considering the situation, but it also feel so wrong to be like "yay kids killing people good job".
But Elliot's glad that Eren seems to be on the same page. Clearing his throat and clinking that glass back against Eren's]
Ah- right. Okay.
[Well, speaking of siblings...]
Well, Elton actually had a sister too. An older one named Fiona. She had red hair too.... a-actually, she looked a lot like Orihime from your mission group. [The redhead that was nice but would cook questionable dishes] Don't think they're the same person, but it made me double-take when Akira had her over.
[And then he nearly died via ghost peppers. It was a weird time.]
Pretty sure Fiona's pretty...clingy too. He was visiting his hometown for a field study, I think, and she got upset that he wanted to stay at a hotel with his classmates than at home.
but eren huffs up the start of a laugh, without actually getting to the full out chuckles. ]
Iād want to do the same thing. Seriously . . . [ which was better: stay with your parents or stay with your friends? totally bunking and hanging out with friends all night. remember when 3am was considered cool? ] Canāt say all of them are like thatā Me and Tifa were always pretty independent. [ actually . . . ] Sheās beaten up more bullies than me through middle school.
Itās probably a clingy thingā but she didnāt mom him either, did she?
I feel like Tifa could beat up the military if she really wanted. [YOUR SIS IS HARDCORE OK] But you're right, she's always seemed like a cool big sis.
[....As for Fiona...]
She started getting sniffly about how he was old enough to be too cool for big sis hugs, and insisted she'll still be watching over him anyway. All because he wanted to stay somewhere else.
And it was in front of his friends.
[So. YEAH. LOTS OF MOMING PROBABLY GOING ON THERE. Mikasa and Fiona can never meet]
[ they will never meet, for as long as eren can help it. itād cause the apocalypse of overboard morning sisters. heās almost getting second, wait, third hand embarrassment over here. ]
[That is the keyword. He takes out a couple veggies and puts it on both their places- you need some greens in your diet too Eren! He'll take out the tofu for himself]
A few. It fluctuates a lot. From childhood to adult, andā
[ the confusing stuff from older people. and everything in between. eren pauses for a moment, his fingers tapping against his knee as he takes a sip of his drink. there was something else that . . . tied into that. ]
Juniorās memories arenāt the only ones Iām getting, either.
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it takes a minute for eren to actually fall back into place, needing to stop himself from saying anything more and allowing elliot to continue. the shift was probably a good thing indeed, but eren might seem a little . . . baffled, still. impressed was a good word, too. heās thoroughly impressed and does not want to feel elliotās fury firsthand. wow.
ahem! š³ ]
I can see why if both of you do . . . [ if elton had the same base personality as elliot, wellā he was really easy to bond with, to open up to, at least for erenā when that had been difficult to do with others. it was a natural warmth of energy that just made you feel comfortable, and heās sure thatās necessary for any type of linking. ] His family wanted him there?
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But it's not like he can DO anything about it here, so it's best not to address it and let it pass. Focusing on answering about his memories helps.
Though his fury is as fierce as an angry puppy so what do you have to fear Eren seriously.]
...I dunno. There's still holes in my memory. [It's likely they did, but he wasn't sure] I know his dream was to attend the Heimdallr Music Academy in his hometown. Not sure yet why he didn't.
He did still get to play though. There was a music club at Thors, they even performed at a local church. It made him really happy.
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it makes eren proud to see elliot doing what he loved now. it always did. filled him with a joy no one would take from him. he spins some of his drink around his glass before sipping, then taking the rest of the meats he had left earlier. all of them. maybe the shift really was a good ideaā get elliot going with music and you might as well see flowers popping up around them. ]
That just makes me even happier to know youāre going after music here. [ it was . . . his soulās longing. it was something they couldnāt take from him, even if elliot switched names or had a different hair color. eren never figured out what the other eren wanted if it werenāt for walls and titans, he was a victim to it. maybe . . . it really was the epitome of freedom, somehow. heād always be searching for it. ] But did he . . . always have magic? Or was that an academy thing?
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He sees Eren's happy look on his face as he talks about the music, and it makes him happy to see, relaxing him some more]
Yeah, me too. Though I'm glad he hasn't given up completely either. [He could follow his dream more easily than the other Elliot could, and that made him feel lucky. But knowing that the other Elliot kept trying to find ways to pursue music? Made him feel more like it was as important to him as he thought. ] One time, he even decided to cheer Rean up by making him do street performing with him. He was pretty forceful about it too.
[He laughs a little at the memory. Dragged the guy through town to get instruments and everything. At the question, he pauses. Not badly, just thoughtfully]
I'm not sure. I know he got the ARCUS from the school, but I'm not sure about the rest of it. [He shrugs] Though I think his powers were pretty common in his world, really. Everything seems to run on some magically powered tech they call orbal technology. They even were studying about it on a midterm.
If there were more people here from that world, I probably wouldn't stand out much magically.
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but to the magic, eren clicks his tongue and shakes his head in disagreement. ]
Thatās what you think. [ more meat to the pot, this time for both of themā eren has abandoned the chop sticks to use his fingers. ] I bet Rean and Eltonās other teammates knew how valuable he was.
There are so many people here with so many different kinds of magic and you still stand out.
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[Did the rest of Class VII find him valuable? They kept him around and got along with him, so surely there must've been something there. At least, he hopes so.
He pulls out some of the veggies out of the pot now]
A-Anyway, your turn again?
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Junior had a pretty impressive squad, too. Really impressive. [ eren doesnāt hold much contempt to it these daysā he took it harder when they were coming, and elliot was the one who shook him back into place when it started burying too deep into him. ] He ranked fifth in the class . . . Out of pure willpower. I can say for a fact that he fell pretty behind in skill compared to everyone else.
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Fifth? That's really good! [Good job Junior!] And awww, don't be that hard on him. Willpower and hardwork's more important than natural skill anyway.
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[ but he wasnāt being hard on himself at all! just realistically viewing facts, at least the ones he remembered. ] There was this one time, when he was a kid . . . [ his finger brushes across his chin. ] That he couldnāt get past the basics. You needed to get the balance mechanism under control if you wanted to pass and go to the maneuver gear. If you failed, they sent you back to the settlement.
Everyone passed and he was the only one failing. And it sucked becauseā [ he rubs his face, as if feeling second hand embarrassment. ] His adopted sister wouldnāt stop babying him in front of everyone. Trying to hand feed him, carrying him away from fist fights . . .
[ it was. really bad sometimes. ]
When he finally passed, because they found a defect in the beltā Thatās one of the first things he thought. That she wouldnāt need to babysit him anymore.
[ he shrugs a little. christ, itās like . . . remembering how much of a kid you were. ]
Didnāt happen.
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Haha, Junior really was a kid if he thought that'd stop her from babysitting him. The only reason I'm safe from full Carlos-coddling is because he's not on the app.
[He did wish he could talk about these things with Carlos. He felt it put a distance between them. Still, it was nice knowing his brother wouldn't freak out every time he took up a task that was more dangerous than "playing with kittens". ]
So he had an adopted sister?
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Yeahā She saved his ass more than once.
[ a lot. she always had to because junior was a dumb. shifting his legs into brief stretch out, he props his arms up behind him. ]
Mikasa Ackerman. They took her in after her parents were murdered. Junior and his dad found them when they were making house calls. [ it got a little tense, butā eren feels like heās telling a story now. this memory didnāt bother him as much as the others. ] They couldnāt find her, though. Dad called the police, but Junior snuck off.
Not the smartest thing, but he doesnāt regret it. Any of it.
[ and by the looks of itā neither does eren. ]
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[The name isn't familiar. Part of him wonders if it was Tifa, but...no, probably not otherwise Eren would've said something about that.
But jeez, talk about a sad way to meet your adopted family. The life in Junior's world was rough]
Did he find her when he snuck off..?
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[ at least, rather harshly, he says pigs in a spiteful way. zero offense to actual swine, whoāre much better animals than those pestsā he did them a favor. well, junior, and despite the recklessness, itās something that he wouldnāt change. heād do it again. ]
They were going to sell her. She was just ten. [ eren swirls a chopstick in the broth, poking at the remaining pieces of meat floating in it, before hooking it under and placing them in their plates. ] He killed two, but only because he got lucky. She got the other one.
[ and after a rather distant pause: ]
Now that I think about itā she probably felt like she owed him somehow.
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On the other hand, hearing two little ten year olds straight up killed 3 guys is PRETTY unsettling too. Even if it sounded like they had little choice, and that world was very different from the one they lived now. What was he supposed to say...? Not like his Eren was the one to do it.
...
You know, let's just. Not address it. He clears his throat]
Wow...
Y-Yeah, she probably did. He did save her life...
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eren had his moral compass, then and now, and some things wouldnāt be so easily changed. (why was talking about memories a good idea, erenās were all tense). snapping out of some quiet thought, he takes his glass and clinks it against elliotās. ]
I talk too muchā your turn.
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But Elliot's glad that Eren seems to be on the same page. Clearing his throat and clinking that glass back against Eren's]
Ah- right. Okay.
[Well, speaking of siblings...]
Well, Elton actually had a sister too. An older one named Fiona. She had red hair too.... a-actually, she looked a lot like Orihime from your mission group. [The redhead that was nice but would cook questionable dishes] Don't think they're the same person, but it made me double-take when Akira had her over.
[And then he nearly died via ghost peppers. It was a weird time.]
Pretty sure Fiona's pretty...clingy too. He was visiting his hometown for a field study, I think, and she got upset that he wanted to stay at a hotel with his classmates than at home.
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but eren huffs up the start of a laugh, without actually getting to the full out chuckles. ]
Iād want to do the same thing. Seriously . . . [ which was better: stay with your parents or stay with your friends? totally bunking and hanging out with friends all night. remember when 3am was considered cool? ] Canāt say all of them are like thatā Me and Tifa were always pretty independent. [ actually . . . ] Sheās beaten up more bullies than me through middle school.
Itās probably a clingy thingā but she didnāt mom him either, did she?
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[....As for Fiona...]
She started getting sniffly about how he was old enough to be too cool for big sis hugs, and insisted she'll still be watching over him anyway. All because he wanted to stay somewhere else.
And it was in front of his friends.
[So. YEAH. LOTS OF MOMING PROBABLY GOING ON THERE. Mikasa and Fiona can never meet]
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Christ . . . Thatās overdoing it.
[ they will never meet, for as long as eren can help it. itād cause the apocalypse of overboard morning sisters. heās almost getting second, wait, third hand embarrassment over here. ]
Was that the worst moming you remember?
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[it would be a truly devastating pair]
It's the only one I remember. I only have one memory of her so far. I'm scared what else's to come....
[As he should be. It'll only get worse]
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[ other erenās been there. ]
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[That is the keyword. He takes out a couple veggies and puts it on both their places- you need some greens in your diet too Eren! He'll take out the tofu for himself]
Your turn?
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Did you get any memories from an older Elton yet?
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No. They're all when he's around 16 or 17, I think. [The woes of not having your timeskip localized yet]
Did you?
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[ the confusing stuff from older people. and everything in between. eren pauses for a moment, his fingers tapping against his knee as he takes a sip of his drink. there was something else that . . . tied into that. ]
Juniorās memories arenāt the only ones Iām getting, either.
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